Day One: It’s Actually Happening

Day one of my LDR and it is starting to sink in…He hasn’t even arrived in Australia yet and I can already feel the pain of separation. The hardest part is to fully accept what is happening; to let go of my emotions and be “okay” with the situation.

Right now, I drift between sadness and pure anger. It’s hard to hear from friends that “it really sucks” or “it will all work out” because nobody truly knows what will happen in the future. It’s obviously extremely upsetting to have my boyfriend move across the world. After spending so much time together the past 2+ years in the relationship I’m not sure how to cope with the long-term separation. I’m sad I won’t get to see him as often or even talk on too many occasions. But I’m also angry that it’s happening…he is actually moving to Australia. I think a part of me never fully grasped the idea of him moving and I’m struggling to accept all that now.

So for now, I’m trying to balance my emotions so I can continue on in my day-to-day routine. I try to keep busy as much as possible and talk to friends whenever I can, but I don’t always want to talk about it. I don’t want everyone’s half-assed attempt at sympathy. I already know how tough it is and nobody else does outside our relationship. I love having the option to talk to people, but sometimes I don’t want to dwell on things. Let me talk if I want to but otherwise leave me alone with my feelings and let me come to you.

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