I’m not usually the “life of the party,” I’ve never been the most popular person in the room, but I’ve always had good friendships with people and I’m fine being in the background. I like to observe people when I first meet them, assess them to decide if I’d like to pursue a friendship with them. To some people I may come off as rude, shy, or awkward (well…I guess I am awkward) and I am perfectly okay with that. I accept myself for who I am and I embrace that.
The thing is, I like being me. I like doing what I want and not doing what I don’t want. I like making my own decisions and being my own person. Too often you see those cookie cutter girls or the group of guys who does everything together. For some people that’s great, but I’m not one of those people. I am a one-person wolfpack type of gal.
This is one of the main reasons that Jay and I work so well together. Jay enjoys hanging out with friends and meeting new people, but he also really values his alone time. He and I have similar perceptions of most people and, while he is more friendly to most people than I am, we can share our opinions about them later. I don’t mean to say that we are constantly judging other people, because we aren’t like that, but we do share some strikingly similar attitudes towards people. We like the same type of people which I guess is one of the reasons we like each other so much.
I honestly don’t think anyone else has seen me for who I really am, my complete self, besides Jay. When I’m with Jay I can be me, and I mean 100% me. I know that when I’m with him everything is normal. There truly is a judgment-free zone between us. Jay’s seen me at my most vulnerable states, both emotionally and physically, and he never left my side during them. He’s seen me with bloodshot eyes, tear stained cheeks, gasping between sobs and still he stayed with me. He’s seen me with greasy hair, extremely sick, and wearing a not-so-fashionable hospital gown and still he stayed with me. He is a truly caring person and can make me smile on even the toughest of days.
Jay and I are great together. We feel incredibly comfortable around each other and have no problem being ourselves. It’s not like we don’t have flaws, but we embrace each other’s flaws and help work around them or improve upon them. We really try to motivate each other to accomplish our goals and work together to better ourselves. Jay’s feelings are rarely hurt which makes it easy to share my constructive criticism with him. I’ve also learned to “not sweat the small stuff” and I really appreciate his suggestions as well. There is such a wonderful balance between us that our relationship is honestly made up of 99.99999% happiness. Jay and I accept each other for who we truly are and we embrace it with an open heart. I don’t believe in soulmates, there are so many people in this world so how can only one be “meant for” you? But the more I think about Jay and I together the more I think about the possibility of soulmates because Jay and I really are perfect for each other.