Sometimes I feel like I’m living a double life. I have my real world self and then I have my LDR blogging self. This second persona is one that I adopted when Jay moved away and I started this blog. What began as a casual hobby to help express my feelings developed into a whole new me. That’s not to day I’m creating this false version of myself, but there are some big differences between blogger me and real life me.
For one thing, blogger me is confident. I write all of my thoughts down as a free flowing post and rarely edit them. These are my true opinions and I don’t mind sharing them here. In a real world setting I’d be much more hesitant to share some of the things I discuss on here. It’s that fear of judgment plaguing the back of my mind.
My blogger self is not only more confident in sharing, but also more willing to talk about my relationship. Jay and I keep our relationship relatively private. While we do talk about each other, it’s not usually the focal point of our conversations. I think the long distance aspect makes me less inclined to talk about us as well. LDRs can be a controversial topic and I get tired of hearing other peoples’ doubts and concerns over it. Blogger me doesn’t care if people have negative opinions…that’s why I write what I want on here! I’m very open about my LDR on here because I love sharing with people who willingly listen to me.
Perhaps the best thing about blogger me is her optimism. Sometimes all I can feel is the social pressures, work stresses, and anger towards the inhumanity in the world…but the blogger me doesn’t think about those things. When I blog, I feel full of life and happiness. The optimism shines through my writing and the real life me feels so much better after writing posts. Sometimes I wish I was more like blogger me in that respect. Being optimistic can have an inclredibly positive impact on your life.
I think I’ll keep this whole “double personality” thing going for a while because I honestly love both mes! Do you feel like you take on a different persona when you blog? What’s different between the “real life” you and the blogger you? I’d love to hear a comparison! Comment below 🙂